changes

Ok. So i was back in Singapore for a day yesterday. All for the sake of collecting my A Level cert and to attend the award presentation day. So, long story short, got my award but could not collect my A Level cert (the thing that actually matters). Yea, frustrated. But no choice. Oh well, it is yet another reason to make another trip down south.

Hwa Chong has changed a lot the past eight months. Surprisingly. CT benches no longer where they used to be, LT3 was a different colour. I even forgot which LT our QM room is hidden in. LOL. Had to kinda hunt for it. Anyway, sneaked into the QM room to find it extremely messy, but nostalgic at the same time. But i digress. Hmm.. I realised that change happens very fast, even concrete changes that we see everyday. But eventually, it's the feelings deep down under that really matters i guess. Even though school is somewhat different from what i remembered it to be, i still find myself smiling like an idiot as i walked along the corridors and across the parade square. Honestly, i don't know why i smiled. It wasn't a conscious act. Maybe because it brought back memories of school days. Memories of how we used to trudge along with our school bags, sometimes complaining, sometimes laughing. I had mixed feelings towards Hwa Chong. Because it is a reminder of much failures albeit all the fun and laughter we had. It is here in Hwa Chong that for the first time in my life i actually felt like a failure, felt frustrated and felt helpless. I remember a feeling of dejection, a feeling of uncertainty, a feeling of doubt, a feeling of fear. Of course, there were good times as well, lots of them. So as i stood there yesterday, i realised that i actually like Hwa Chong very much and am proud to call myself a HwaChongian (a term i still cringe when i hear. i don't know. just think it sounds.. erm. weird. why can't we just be called hwa chong students?)

Anyway, had a family dinner in Singapore, with my brother and Gwen. Lol. I actually do think of her as family already. Haha. Kinda like the feeling of how we band together and advice my brother against certain things. Feels like what a family does=)

I wanted to stay longer for this visit but because of the upcoming finals, i couldn't. I'll definitely be down again, before KJ and Eli fly off to the UK. And the next time i'm down, i will meet up with 35th, with 09S77, with the guas and also the 4C1 gang. (I hope to..)

Finals tomorrow. Guess i should hop off to bed soon and wake up early to do some studying. Can't believe i just burned my whole study break week away. (Actually, i can.) My mom nags at me but to no avail. Lol.

Not used to seeing my fingers with short nails. HAHA.

Ok. Bed time.

Towards the end

Another semester coming to an end. Pretty soon it will be a new routine, new classes, new classmates, new teachers and new subjects. But before all that, a break! =)

One last essay for research writing, one last quiz for social psychology and den it's the finals! Can't believe how fast a short semester flies by. But at the same time, extrememely happy for finals to be here and done!

What's with me and ankle sprains?

Damn. I stupidly sprained my ankle again. And it's hurting. Sien.

知足的快乐让我忍受心痛

Friendship is something that stumps me.

Sometimes, even though you are aware of the wall that has been growing between the both of you for a very long time, it still pierces your heart when you sit around the same table and see it confirmed right before your own eyes. You try to keep a smile but your own laughter sounds hollow to your ears. And sometimes, you can't help but wonder: What happened?

But at least, you're still friends, even if it is a far cry from what it was 10 years ago.

A random post

They say that love is blind.
I say that love is acceptance.

Words

5 sayings i grew up listening to, sayings with a history and lots of memories:

1. If someone wants to make you angry, don't get angry. Instead the person who is trying to make you angry will get angry.

2. A hungry man is an angry man.

3. Old is gold.

4. Don't teach your grandmother how to suck egg.

5. "Where got?" "God is in Heaven"

Honestly, i've not heard them in quite a while.

Quote to keep in mind.

Who you travel with can be more important than the destination. It's the journey that matters. I wonder how true this is? To a certain extent, in a certain perception. It is. Just try my best in everything and have no regrets.